Archive for May, 2015

An Epiphany


two-ways-to-live-lifeI got it! I finally figured out why I am so burnt out of my job!!

When I got into recruiting, my mission was small. Make the candidates happy by finding them their dream job. It was so simple and so beautiful. I had a great work partner and the two of us were the true dream team.

I think I got greedy because one day, it just wasn’t enough anymore. I wanted bigger. I wanted better. I wanted more exciting. So I moved over into the corporate world. And then things got hella complicated.

You see, I still make the candidates happy. I still help them get a really cool job at a really cool company, but in the corporate world, it’s so much more complicated.

Not only do I have to make sure the candidate is happy. I have to please the following:

Sunday Night Blues


images-84It’s a sure sign that you are unhappy with your job when you dread going to work on Monday. So what does it mean when you are sitting on your couch watching your favorite TV show and the moment you see a work email pop into your inbox, you immediately want to vomit.

I’m serious. I really want to vomit right now. Then I want to curl up into the fetal position and cry. I really wish I could just quit.

I have a long list of all of the reasons why I cannot quit today, followed by another long list as to why I can, but it’s not an easy decision. Quitting without another job lined up is highly risky for me and I don’t have anyone to fall back on for help or support.




**looks behind me**

Are you sure you’re talking to me?

I’ve been hearing a lot of those words lately from family, friends, blog readers, classmates, etc. I’m not going to lie, it’s extremely uncomfortable because I don’t see myself as motivational. I don’t see myself as brave. I don’t see myself as attractive or amazing or special in any way.

I see myself as someone who is just trying to survive, to deal with the shit cards that she has been dealt, to mend a very troubled past and to have a productive future. I see my life as one big hole and I’m at the bottom of it trying to climb out with dirt falling in all around me, trying to bury me alive.

Alternative Activity Ideas for the Summer


Man leading group of people in boot camp exercises, rear view

If you are waiting for the schools to break up and are trying to work out ways to keep the teenagers and younger kids amused its time to think outside the box.

Are you in the mood for adventure? Do you feel the need to explore or try something new for a change? If you are you can bet your children are too.

What you need is a holiday with a difference. Forget your usual trip to the beach or your tried and tested hotel in Spain. There are incredible activities out there that will satisfy your desire for the unusual and provide you with happy memories and experiences to share with your friends and family for years to come.

Journaling For My Sanity


journalingMy official diagnosis for my depression is called Dysthymia. It is considered a chief form of depression, but it usually “has fewer or less serious symptoms than major depression but lasts longer.”

My first bout of depression went from roughly 2008 to 2010. I had a different therapist at the time and she suggested that I take a medication called Wellbutrin. I was really hesitant at first, but I figured that I would give it a try. Though it really helped me mentally, it was still a disaster physically. I was lucky enough to get the side effect of excessive sweating.

I could and would start sweating at the drop of a hat for no good reason other than the fact that I walked one block, downhill. It was mortifying. To make matters worse, it took me months to figure out what was going on. I thought I was going through early menopause (I was in my 30’s).

Squirreling Away For A Rainy Day?


heal-food-allergies-fb-ready-785x411Just when I thought I was done with my food issues, a few more allergies decided to sneak in. Like one day they decided they were missing out on the party of the year that I never wanted to have.

A recent blood test came up with 17 different food allergies and I am in the process of doing a food elimination, just to be sure. So far, in addition to being allergic to almonds and having a gluten and dairy intolerance, I am also allergic to soy and yeast.

Sigh, really?  I mean, really?

I have become quite the pain in the ass to have a meal with.